Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Love 1 Down.....

Here she goes again. Fourth peg of rum down. Shreya could hardly open her eyes but never the less she was enjoying. Music was lucid in the background, she didn’t care much. One could imagine her state of mind, after four pegs down; she was almost there in cloud nine. She drowsily looked at her boyfriend and smiled. Her boyfriend smiled back, who was equally drunk. They were a stand-out couple in their own sense because their romance took a new high when they were drunk. Shreya was drowned in alcohol but her eyes were intoxicated by love. Love for Ronav, who has changed her life. She is quite an individual on her own- self dependent, go-getter, a very confident it-girl. Until she fall in love. Born out of Bong and Assamese parents, she definitely has a few North-eastern traits, making her quite a sharp, cute-looker and add to that the personality makes her a class of her own. Love has made her quite an insecure being, especially this being her first relationship. She slowly pulled the high-tool she was sitting in, near Ronav, put her two hands around his shoulder, and drew her face close to him. The smell of the musk was strong; it gave her a new high. Shreya looked at Ronav, and said “Baby, you love me na.”. Ronav gently caressed her hair, drew her closer, and then straight looked straight into her eyes, “Of course, I love you very much Ana”

The orchids were the only bright thing, apart from her, in that room of Jaslok Hospital. Aahana was staring blankly at the window panes which was battering against strong winds and gushing rain. She wished they survive, as she has. Her face looked pale yet the accident has not managed to take away the inherent herself. Her eyes still looked beautiful and had a story to tell, waiting for someone to read. Her mom was standing behind her curtains, perplexed. Although she was assured about recovery of Roo (as they lovingly call her), her heart sensed the bigger storm that awaits in their daughter’s life.

That one word of Ronav was enough, to bring Shreya from her beautiful dream to reality. Her anger knew no bounds, she simply picked up the wine glass and threw the remnants of the glass on Ronav’s face and walked off, from her own apartment. She failed to understand where she failed in these three years of relationship. Ronav was in a shock, not due to Shreya’s reaction but his statement. “What the f***” he thought, “Three years man…Damn!!!!” He needed to reassure himself that he loved Shreya, and that all is well. Whatever he said was just a fluke and of course its alcohol. It wasn’t he who said that forbidden word ”Ana ”. Ronav being a business consultant has fixed bigger issues in workplace, this seems to be so much simpler to fix yet he is still trying.

Aahana looked anxiously all around. Her mother could read her eyes on what or rather whom she was searching. She didn’t have an answer to the questions her eyes posed. Doctor has informed that Aahana is suffering from partial amnesia, due to the near fatal accident, her memory refuses to remember any incident that happened in last 5 years. She remembers her parents, her graduation day, her first day at job, her love Ronav but not her break-up with him. It is always so difficult to break bad news to her daughter, let alone her loss of memory or her break-up that happened 3 years back. Doctors have strictly advised not to put her under any stress and recovery of memory will be natural, if at all it happens.

Shreya left the building and started walking down. Tears were in abundance, threatened to wipe off her mascara…she cared a damn. It was almost mid-night, and she knew it was not at all safe around that time, in Dwarka. Ronav chased her down. He pleaded his innocence but she won’t have any. Seeds of doubt were already planted. Ronav has been completely transparent about his past relationship to her and apparently has not met his ex for last 3 years. Shreya wondered why she feels so helpless when it is her relationship, when she has quashed off her any competitors potential or otherwise in her professional life, just like that. But she was determined to win over this riddle called Aahana, which still loomed large on her relationship. It took couple of hours, 1 slap, 2 songs, 1 ice-cream and 1 kiss to do the trick. Shreya was smiling again. Little did they know, life is one wicked game, waiting to take them for one big adventure that could change their destiny…………………..

Friday, September 10, 2010

Festival and Human Relations

As India transcends into double celebration mode - Eid and Ganesh Chaturthi, its happy times specially out here in Mumbai, both are big festivals. And Indo-Pak jodi reaching finals of US open,wonder if it is just a sweet personally the energy that evloves in the festivals. Basically faith in god manages to bring the best in human spirit and we, thankfully get a chance to celebrate our unity of humanity ...Food, Music, Dance forms core, while we tend to mingle with everyone during these events, such is the magic!!

Wish our personal relationships were simple too....but they always hang in the thin air ...leaving us to do the fine balancing act. And with time, it sometimes gets complicated. We often wonder why we cant related to the person,way we used to few years back . Why do equation changes....and then are there some instances the chemistry growing stronger with time. Probably subconsciously, we are evaluating our life all the time and relations becomes subject to relativity. Ageing is a natural progression, so is probably consolidation in personal relationships. Consolidation here essentially means that we need to let go some people from our lives not because they are not important- but bcoz they are very important and we want to remember them always with a smile.

And these days of course social networking has become a big arena in our personal lives – in fact we give access to information privy to ourselves, to the world though status updates. Sub-consciously our human mind, always seek feedback and thats where facebook and its entire world of comment acts as an stimulus addendum. Sometime we love, sometimes we hate these comments but definitely we do not ignore. Thats the risk we carry while exposing ourselves to social networking site, we kind of give license to people to write anything and everything about us. Personally, I will tend to block a person if he tries to cross the fine line of self respect- however easier said than done , as the nastiest remarks often come from the closest ones who are empowered naturally to make a bigger impact on you. Otherwise its fun..and best part is you get to know so many people and their random yet wonderful thoughts. Honest mostly!!!!

Was really looking forward to this weekend- Had a boys night out yesterday and with Praveen and Ankit, unlimited quantum of laughter guaranteed, its so true old friends are really gold.... looking forward to a rocking weekend with lunch at close friends place , watching the much-hyped Dabbang, for the entertainment it promises to offer, happily play games and make Balu scowl, whenever I win...Life has changed quite a bit after coming to Mumbai......have let go some emotions and relations, accepted a few change in equations....Choices we make are never easy but it is important to make one , to take us forward. Thankfully, few choices God has made for us, so whenever get lost in life, my cousin is just a ping away.....

We should never ever fear to make a choice and let ever anyone to make us so vunerable that we start losing ourselves. And most importantly do things, which keeps us happy!!!

Happy Weekend ...keep rocking!!!!! All izz Well:-)